Why I took a break from writing

Welcome or welcome back to blog. I just want to start off in this second half of this year by explaining why I have not been writing nor been on social media. It has been two and a half months months since I've last been on social media and it has been so good for me. I have grown in my relationship with the Lord so much just by reading His Word rather than by looking to other Christian creatives to teach me. I have also been spending time in fellowship with other believers which has been so sweet.

A lot has happened in my walk with the Lord just from this time I have been away from the socials and from writing. Let me start by sharing why I have not been on social media.

I had stopped creating and all I did was consume everyone else's content. This was a very draining and emotionally taxing activity. I felt horrible inside after all that time spent on scrolling instead of doing something creative. I filled my time with mindless scrolling instead of reading or doing something productive with my time. I had even stopped reading my Bible first thing when I got up and chose to go on social media first thing in the morning. For this and a few other reasons I will mention in a later blog, I decided to delete the app on my phone. It was meant to be for a month but now its been two months because I have enjoyed how I feel without it.

Now, lets get to why I have not been writing.

A part of me felt like I had nothing to share that was of any value for anyone. This is mostly because I was not in a good place in my relationship with the Lord. I was not reading my Bible on a consistent daily basis, and even when I did, it was for myself. I wanted to feel like a good lil Christian by checking it off as something I did. I had absolutely no desire to read the Word and sometimes I just didn't even read it. I was very distant from Jesus. A lot had happened, some good and some not so good things that made me question God. As a result I just didn't want to spend time with Him. I blamed Him for many of the things because my question was: why didn't He try and intervene for more favourable results? But what I failed to see, was that God is sovereign and He works all things for His purpose and for our good. We live in a broken world, and of course we will have trouble. But we can have joy even in those moments and ask the Lord what He is teaching us about who He is. We often deceive ourselves by running away from God instead of closer to Him, because we need Him every second of everyday.

I was feeling very dry spiritually and that meant I had nothing to say. And truth be told, I shouldn't have been saying anything anyway if I'm not constantly connected to the Source. As my words would be filled with anything but what God says. I am very aware of how deceitful our hearts are, they need to be sanctified and purified so that we can be transformed into the image of Jesus. So I don't want to share anything that will bring confusion or have no substance. Which is why I chose to remain silent and step away from the writing.

Another reason was that I had absolutely nothing to say at all. Everything I do, the writing I do is for the audience of One. So I had to humble myself before Him and realize that He is good! Thereafter, I could start writing again, because I have come right with the One for whom I write. Also He is the One who inspires most if not all of my writing, and without Him, I have nothing to say. I want everything I write about as well as do, to flow from intimacy with Jesus, so if its out of my own, I would rather not do it.

I pray that through this writing, God will do a work in you, that only He can do. I can write clever words, and intelligent sounding things that appeal to your emotions. But only God can transform you and stir a desire in you to get to know Him. If the writing you find here does that, then all glory be to God who alone is able to work in your life. Praise be to Him forever.

Until next time :)

Psalm 46:1-3 - God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling.